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look i’ve been thinking
you know how once you asked me if i would just stop hanging out with you if the Lan Sizhui from my world appeared
you know how once you asked me if i would just stop hanging out with you if the Lan Sizhui from my world appeared
which
no!!
of course i wouldn’t!!
but i thought maybe it would get confusing, you know, talking about you
no!!
of course i wouldn’t!!
but i thought maybe it would get confusing, you know, talking about you
and i thought
maybe it’s already confusing for you
but you already call me by my birth name and it’s not like you wouldn’t call him by that to so
okay that’s not the point
maybe it’s already confusing for you
but you already call me by my birth name and it’s not like you wouldn’t call him by that to so
okay that’s not the point
Edited 2020-03-05 13:03 (UTC)
the point is!!!
i think
things are kind of different between you and me and the sizhui from home so i
i think
things are kind of different between you and me and the sizhui from home so i
if it’s okay
can i call you lan yuan
not that i don’t like your courtesy name, it’s better than mine,
but
ugh this is stupid never mind!!!!!!
can i call you lan yuan
not that i don’t like your courtesy name, it’s better than mine,
but
ugh this is stupid never mind!!!!!!
Edited 2020-03-05 11:31 (UTC)
[ ugh ugh ugh why won’t his face cool down ]
okay
if you insist!!
lan yuan it is
i hate it
people always tease me and call me princess already
i don’t need a girly name too
but you can
call me whatever you want i guess
but only if it’s you
okay
if you insist!!
lan yuan it is
i hate it
people always tease me and call me princess already
i don’t need a girly name too
but you can
call me whatever you want i guess
but only if it’s you
Yes, please. I think I will like you calling me Lan Yuan.
[ There. Insisting. ]
I don't think pretty, or even delicate, things are necessarily girly. But then again, Lan Yi was a woman and she invented one of the deadliest assassination techniques, while Lan An was a man, and he created some very delicate music, so perhaps my knowledge is a little lopsided...
[ There. Insisting. ]
I don't think pretty, or even delicate, things are necessarily girly. But then again, Lan Yi was a woman and she invented one of the deadliest assassination techniques, while Lan An was a man, and he created some very delicate music, so perhaps my knowledge is a little lopsided...
[ Jin Ling just kind of has to rest his forehead against the cool tile of the bathroom wall, for a second. Lan Yuan. Well, he did this to himself. ]
all of you lans are pretty and delicate and deadly i don’t see how that makes a difference
i just don’t want people to call me princess or talk about how spoiled i am or tease me about fairy
gusu and lanling just aren’t the same about these things
all of you lans are pretty and delicate and deadly i don’t see how that makes a difference
i just don’t want people to call me princess or talk about how spoiled i am or tease me about fairy
gusu and lanling just aren’t the same about these things
It
[ Yelp, he's suddenly missing Jingyi. Give him a moment. ]
People will come up with silly names, no matter what. Some people will grow out of it, some people will never realize that it says more about them than the person they are going after, and some people do it out of affection, because they fear if they don't get a rise out of you, they'll be
Forgettable. Just another person who doesn't matter.
Anyway, I mean it matters most what you think of yourself. The rest will always not know everything, no matter how much we know or think we know.
[ Yelp, he's suddenly missing Jingyi. Give him a moment. ]
People will come up with silly names, no matter what. Some people will grow out of it, some people will never realize that it says more about them than the person they are going after, and some people do it out of affection, because they fear if they don't get a rise out of you, they'll be
Forgettable. Just another person who doesn't matter.
Anyway, I mean it matters most what you think of yourself. The rest will always not know everything, no matter how much we know or think we know.
[ there’s a pause of a couple minutes
since when had sizhui been so kind and wise
well since forever he supposes but still
without addressing any of it: ]
you can call me rulan if you want
but if anyone else uses rulan i will sick fairy on them
or you can call me a-ling again
if it’s you, i don’t mind
since when had sizhui been so kind and wise
well since forever he supposes but still
without addressing any of it: ]
you can call me rulan if you want
but if anyone else uses rulan i will sick fairy on them
or you can call me a-ling again
if it’s you, i don’t mind
Edited 2020-03-05 14:52 (UTC)
[ He pulls his knees up against his chest as he sits on his bed, putting a hand over his mouth as he feels his face heat up. Damn it.
Fairy looks up, her head tilting, questioning, and he shoots her a quick 'hush!!' before looking back at his phone. ]
what do you want me to hear, then
[ ... asking for a friend. ]
Fairy looks up, her head tilting, questioning, and he shoots her a quick 'hush!!' before looking back at his phone. ]
what do you want me to hear, then
[ ... asking for a friend. ]
Ah...?
[ A moment, switching between finishing up the cleaning of the kitchen and paying full attention to Jin Ling.
Who is blushing, which makes Sizhui blink and consider, then smile a tiny bit and come closer, reach up to lightly neaten the folds of Jin Ling's robe, unsettled by the unusual activity around the kitchen. His eyes crinkle every so slightly. ]
And am I supposed to ask how we should make sure that you do have enough chroma...?
[ Teasing, just a little, because he's pretty sure it will be worse if he just agrees. As though another option is unthinkable. ]
[ A moment, switching between finishing up the cleaning of the kitchen and paying full attention to Jin Ling.
Who is blushing, which makes Sizhui blink and consider, then smile a tiny bit and come closer, reach up to lightly neaten the folds of Jin Ling's robe, unsettled by the unusual activity around the kitchen. His eyes crinkle every so slightly. ]
And am I supposed to ask how we should make sure that you do have enough chroma...?
[ Teasing, just a little, because he's pretty sure it will be worse if he just agrees. As though another option is unthinkable. ]
[ Cool, great, when the fuck did Sizhui get so smooth? Jin Ling casts a little bit of a petulant look at him, just for being suave, and then tilted his chin up as if he definitely didn't care and this was definitely only because he had to. ]
Well, I mean - I figured we could just - kissing is probably the fastest way to do it, but if you don't want to do that we can just hold hands or something the whole way there--
Well, I mean - I figured we could just - kissing is probably the fastest way to do it, but if you don't want to do that we can just hold hands or something the whole way there--
sizhu
i a-yuan sizhui a
okay so
okay so say someone came to you for advice asking about how you know when you want to kiss someone
and you say if you really need to ask me this you already know
but then they obviously don’t just mean kissing
they clearly mean like
you know
anyway what do you tell them to
also what is a date exactly the internet is giving me mixeD RESULTS
I think a date is an arrangement to do something together. Though the usual meaning is for couples who are together as couples, or... trying to be together. Though it can be just for friends, too.
[ Look at him not asking.
The other one requires a bit more thought. ]
I think... wondering whether you want to kiss somebody or not is not the same as wanting to kiss them, necessarily. It depends, a little, on what the kiss would mean.
But if it's about whether you want more, then it's definitely better to talk about it, though it's very hard sometimes.
Like... if someone says they want a drink, it might mean different things. With some, it's a cup of water, or tea. Wanted or even needed, but not a great matter. For some, it's a drink of wine, and that can lead to consequences that the person may or may not be ready to face.
I don't know if I'm making sense.
[ Look at him not asking.
The other one requires a bit more thought. ]
I think... wondering whether you want to kiss somebody or not is not the same as wanting to kiss them, necessarily. It depends, a little, on what the kiss would mean.
But if it's about whether you want more, then it's definitely better to talk about it, though it's very hard sometimes.
Like... if someone says they want a drink, it might mean different things. With some, it's a cup of water, or tea. Wanted or even needed, but not a great matter. For some, it's a drink of wine, and that can lead to consequences that the person may or may not be ready to face.
I don't know if I'm making sense.
okay but apparently not doing anything is hanging out and doing something is a date so i don’t understand
so if someone goes out of their way to call it a date it’s probably
not just as friends right
and what the hell does friends even mean in this world anyway like
what’s the difference between friends and
friends
and i guess that makes sense but
i don’t know
does it mean more the more you’re worried about it, or something?
so if someone goes out of their way to call it a date it’s probably
not just as friends right
and what the hell does friends even mean in this world anyway like
what’s the difference between friends and
friends
and i guess that makes sense but
i don’t know
does it mean more the more you’re worried about it, or something?
I mean, by that definition when we're all sitting on the couch moonlacing, that would be hanging out, right? So it makes sense.
I think there would be a difference between friends, *friends*, and ... a couple? As in, friends who don't do more than hands holding and hugs, friends who do do more than hands holding and hugs, and then people who want to be together with each other primarily and not so much with other people regularly? At least that is my understanding.
And yeah, how much you worry would make a difference. But mostly, what happens after, and what you want or don't want to happen after, would make a difference.
I think there would be a difference between friends, *friends*, and ... a couple? As in, friends who don't do more than hands holding and hugs, friends who do do more than hands holding and hugs, and then people who want to be together with each other primarily and not so much with other people regularly? At least that is my understanding.
And yeah, how much you worry would make a difference. But mostly, what happens after, and what you want or don't want to happen after, would make a difference.
Well. Different things and different times. Sometimes it's just 'watch out' and sometimes it's 'I'm here' and sometimes it's 'please be more careful' and sometimes it's 'it's all right' and sometimes it's 'I'm glad you're close' and sometimes it's
Sometimes it's 'I care for you.'
Sometimes it's 'I care for you.'
Or we can do both.
[ One hand cupping Jin Ling's cheek, he brushes his lips lightly against the other boy's. Is this too fast? I'm here.
His suave only goes so far. But he does want to kiss him. Even if they are in the kitchen and literally anyone might walk in. He doesn't care. He's not ashamed. ]
[ One hand cupping Jin Ling's cheek, he brushes his lips lightly against the other boy's. Is this too fast? I'm here.
His suave only goes so far. But he does want to kiss him. Even if they are in the kitchen and literally anyone might walk in. He doesn't care. He's not ashamed. ]
yeah i guess that makes sense
oh
yeah
[ Why did his chest suddenly hurt so badly? He rubbed at it a little aimlessly, frowning at the message. It made sense. And it meant him and Sizhui were *friends*, and that was fine, right?
That’s what they had agreed. And it wasn’t like either of them were... he knew Sizhui had a lot of people he liked. That was fine.
But why did he kind of wish there was another step up between the two? ]
see that’s what i said
figure out what you want to happen after
but i mean
what if it doesn’t really matter what you want anyway
oh
yeah
[ Why did his chest suddenly hurt so badly? He rubbed at it a little aimlessly, frowning at the message. It made sense. And it meant him and Sizhui were *friends*, and that was fine, right?
That’s what they had agreed. And it wasn’t like either of them were... he knew Sizhui had a lot of people he liked. That was fine.
But why did he kind of wish there was another step up between the two? ]
see that’s what i said
figure out what you want to happen after
but i mean
what if it doesn’t really matter what you want anyway
Edited (Forgot to take off a whole discarded paragraph lmfao) 2020-03-09 15:57 (UTC)
[
oh that made him feel really really weird
in a really nice but weirdly nervous way ]
that is a lot to expect a name to say
a-yuan
but
me too
for you
i mean
oh that made him feel really really weird
in a really nice but weirdly nervous way ]
that is a lot to expect a name to say
a-yuan
but
me too
for you
i mean
I think we should go exploring.
Proper exploring.
There has to be things we can do here that we could t at home, right?
Let’s find them.
Proper exploring.
There has to be things we can do here that we could t at home, right?
Let’s find them.
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