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[imperio]

oh, you already knew

it's alright
i mean, i couldn't imagine having that kind of talk with anyone i consider an adult in charge, so i can't entirely blame you for misconceptions
i told jin ling to tell him it's none of his business, but he seems to think that's incredibly hard to say to your father
for your benefit, i will learn to keep my mouth shut
:)

the idea of polygamy isn't exactly ... commonplace where i'm from, either
'fated one' is a bit dramatic, but i think the idea is still central there. soulmates, that kind of thing.
i guess, why not more than one? the more the merrier, or something

anyway, if your father believes i'm to court you, then court you i will
it's very fanciful language
it makes me think of ... knights and princesses and princes

[sizhui]

I could guess what kind of conclusion he would reach. If I hadn't been distracted, at least.

You know you don't have to do anything you don't want to, right? I mean I don't mind if you and I were to get to know each other better. And see what happens from that point forward? But you don't have to commit just... immediately. Or I might end up courting you. That would be interesting, too.

But there is a lot that we can do to learn about each other? For example, the only knights I know about are the moon knights here, so I'm not sure what that means, since I don't know how they connect to princes and princesses. But it sounds, well, fanciful.

As to keeping your mouth shut, the thing is, if you overstep, he'll do it for you. You can ask Jin Ling. He is harder to offend that he seems, mostly because he has learned to ignore... things. Or will learn. The Hanguang-jun from Jin Ling's world is a lot younger than the one from mine, than he would be at our ages. And he is still in mourning about losing his fated one. Because there is only one person for him. And then there was his and Zewu-jun's father, whose fated one didn't love him back. So it has a bit of history and he's lived with that for all his life. And then there is me, who is not choosing one person and one person only.

But it'd be worse to lie to him, about any of it. Or to act as though I don't feel the way that I feel. OR - well, I'm sure you get what I mean. Maybe?

[imperio]

there is a concept of casually dating
i mean, i think
im seventeen and have had exactly one girlfriend, don’t ask me

in any case, i encourage any and all courting attempts
we should hang out

there’s multiples of Hanguang-jun ( c&p the name from sizhui’s text — man it sounds different out loud ) too?
prisma has gained quite the collection
i’m just barely keeping track as is

i get the impression you should worry less of your father, and more about your own self
if it’s not overstepping to say as much
if your love life offends, i think it’s his job to get over it

[sizhui]

... I don't think that concept has gotten anywhere close to where we come from. Even not about the Lan Clan... There is honor and commitment, and then there are those who don't, and, well, the most recent example just. I not encouraging anyone to be that... comfortable with lack of commitment.

But this is a different world. And caring about people without thinking that you have to spend your life with them, it's different. So yes! Hanging out.

And ha, it's. There is two of me, and two of Jin Ling. There used to be two of Sect leader Jiang, Jin Ling's uncle, but one recently vanished. There are two of his dad, though. There are two of Hanguang-jun, and two of Zewu-jun, his elder brother and our, I mean my, Sect Leader. And there are two of. Other people from our worlds, too. Some of them not very nice. Oh, and there are two of another of Jin Ling's uncles, Wei Wuxian. The one he watches ghost movies and drinks with?

There are a lot.


And about it being his job...

In a way?

But Harry, if Hanguang-jun hadn't taken me in, I would be dead, twice over. And he cared about me even though he was grieving, soul-deep. And he has given me everything. It's... how could I tell someone like that, get over it?

All I can do is to make sure he knows I'm still

Someone good. Someone who is worth giving everything to. Maybe not quite how he expected, but still.

[ He wishes he could type 'still good enough' but he's never been that. Not really. ]

Still me, I guess.

[imperio]

you can also want to spend your life with multiple people
don’t you think?
it’s not such a revolutionary idea
maybe greedy
but i think understandable

merlin’s beard that’s a lot
i’m going to save this text as a reference
i feel like jin ling grows a new uncle every day

you’re adopted?
sorry i didn’t know

( this one genuinely thought lwj was straight. tragic )

again i’m really sorry if this isn’t my place
and i don’t have much frame of reference since i’m also an orphan
but i would hope
i guess
that his love for his son is greater than his obsession with tradition
and measuring your goodness is reliant on more than just the number of people you care for

both of our worlds are so tragic, sizhui
no one has any right to deny you anything that gives you happiness
least of all someone who should love you unconditionally

( accidentally laying our daddy issues on sizhui, the text )

[sizhui]

I don't think that's how it works back home. So I suppose it is a very revolutionary idea. The honorable thing could be, perhaps, to remarry after being widowed? But that's as close as we get. To my knowledge.

Hah. I've had to learn genealogies among many other things. It kind of helps. And it's not that he grows one, it's that
Okay one of the things is that his grandfather had a lot of illegitimate children. That is part of the problem with ... us, I think. Everyone remembers him, and those are not good memories. But it's not at all the same.
And another thing is that one of his uncles, on the other side, died when he was about a month old. So he grew up without him. But - well. Things are different here? But he was raised by two of his uncles, his uncle and his little uncle (who is I think actually a little older than the other one, but still), and now there is a third. Only, two of him.

Oh.

I'm sorry for your loss.

Hanguang-jun's obsession is less with tradition and more with... Righteousness. But for most of his life that righteousness has been defined by a lot of rules. A wall of them. He was punished every time he deviated from them, and as second son to the sect leader, he had to uphold them extra hard.

It's not that his love is conditional. It's not.

But it takes time to ... find a way around something you've had to hold on to for all your life.

And it's not - he hasn't denied me anything. But who is going to care about his happiness if his son doesn't?