It's not that... I understand why it might be a proper thing to do, maybe.
But... even though I am thankful for this second life, the price was high and the cost of failure was even higher. I feel a bit like a bystander in the whole thing, with a price that was pushed on me to pay.... Since it was paid and done, isn't that the end of it? It's not like he would know one way or the other what we do for him. He's not going to care.
I... I am still only young, but I think ... I think that it is better than no altar is made than one you would only bow at because someone made you, and not because you feel the one it is for is truthfully in your heart for the honoring.
When it comes to young master Mo...
What he did, I see how it hurt you. But in a way, you are his flesh and blood, the only descendant he ever might have. Then only one who is left with the right to honor him.
But whether you do, that should be your choice alone, not anyone else's.
Did doing what you do not believe in ever bring anything good to you, senior Wei?
[ Sizhui... once this is brought up. He wants to make an altar himself. But he doubts it would do, for whatever is making senior Wei come to him with this now. ]
Ahh! But this is different! If I don't Hanguang Jun will definitely be mad at me since I forgot I said I would and he went and started a project on his own!
[He started to whine, the heart of the issue exposed.]
[ Not fully convinced because putting the altar in a closet is what you started the conversation with, senior Wei, but at least he said it and was heard. He just.
After the way young master Mo was kept locked up and as far out of mind as they could, by his family, and beaten when they thought of him at all... it doesn't seem fair for that to be locked up, too. ]
[ Yes but when he says two contradicting things, it's hard to know which one exactly he means! Still... Sizhui gives a small smile, just a touch flustered. ]
Thank you, senior Wei. I am glad if I was able to help.
Probably in person.
Can we stick it in a closet? Up somewhere out of the way? I'm not even sure!
Help!
yaas
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Is it, is it strange to have an alter for Mo Xuanyu?
[He feels it is, but, no one seems to feel the same way he does.]
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So it is not something you wish to do? Why?
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But... even though I am thankful for this second life, the price was high and the cost of failure was even higher. I feel a bit like a bystander in the whole thing, with a price that was pushed on me to pay.... Since it was paid and done, isn't that the end of it? It's not like he would know one way or the other what we do for him. He's not going to care.
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When it comes to young master Mo...
What he did, I see how it hurt you. But in a way, you are his flesh and blood, the only descendant he ever might have. Then only one who is left with the right to honor him.
But whether you do, that should be your choice alone, not anyone else's.
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I can understand where I should. And, I'm not even a little ungrateful...
But, it also feels weird. I never knew him... just the writing he left behind and the slander in people's memories.
But also....
[He can't just say 'Hanguang Jun will be upset if I don't'. He can already tell that sounds terrible to say!
It takes all of his will not to flop on the floor to roll around indecisively.]
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Did doing what you do not believe in ever bring anything good to you, senior Wei?
[ Sizhui... once this is brought up. He wants to make an altar himself. But he doubts it would do, for whatever is making senior Wei come to him with this now. ]
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[He started to whine, the heart of the issue exposed.]
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[ Sizhui blinks in the direction of the master bedroom. ]
He did?
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...
Maybe I should tell Lan Zhan....
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Would he accept it if there is an altar here? You do not have to honor it.
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And I forgot the most important thing in all of this!
What do you think Lan Zhan will say?
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He will do what you wish.
But if there is an altar, I think he will honor it.
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I can at least ask where to put it.
[It was too late to say no.]
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Not inside a closet. From what I saw...
Perhaps if it is outside, where the sunlight can touch it, that might be better.
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[It would feel like a curse shrine in a closet.]
Yes! Outside, I feel that is perfect and fitting. A place of honor that is thoughtful, but not intrusive.
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[ Not fully convinced because putting the altar in a closet is what you started the conversation with, senior Wei, but at least he said it and was heard. He just.
After the way young master Mo was kept locked up and as far out of mind as they could, by his family, and beaten when they thought of him at all... it doesn't seem fair for that to be locked up, too. ]
Yes. That might be good, I think.
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Then it is settled!
Thank you Sizhui! You are so reliable. You make a fine and proper man!
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Thank you, senior Wei. I am glad if I was able to help.
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