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Lan Sizhui ([personal profile] sizhui) wrote2020-09-05 02:21 pm

Post-Prismatica

ooc: For various and sundry threads for those who remember the time at Prisma.
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[personal profile] gusumouthcannon 2020-09-06 10:18 pm (UTC)(link)
Jingy wakes up.

It's night, soon after he'd fallen asleep, and it takes him a moment to sort out where he is and why he feels so strange.

Because this is home, and he honestly had not expected to see it again, somehow. It has been...months. Five? Six? Since he has seen home, and he is dizzy with remembering. He shouldn't be remember, though? Not when so many had come back to the places he'd been taken with their memories erased or modified in some fashion.

His moonlit room hasn't changed. The papers he'd never finished before he was pulled into some alternate time and place are exactly the same. He still doesn't want to finish them, but its nice to know that he now has the option to.

This--he doesn't understand what to make of this. He's glad to be home, mostly. There are people he will miss, but...

Sizhui.

Without a thought in his head, he throws on his robes, even though it is night. His robes feel strange (right, but strange) and everything feels just slightly not real, but the instant he judges himself decent enough to go sneaking around, he flings himself out of his room and into the night.

The scent of Cloud Recesses is perfect and Jingyi hadn't known that he'd been an exile longing for home until he didn't have to long anymore.

He can't find Sizhui. At least not at first. He has to go down the list of places Sizhui could possibly be before he gets to the cold springs. He comes out of the trees surrounding the ponds loudly and inelegantly, for all that he's not speaking, just huffing with the exertion of running all over Cloud Recesses on his hunt.

When he gets there, though, he drops to his knees by the side of the springs and blurts, "You're hard to find."
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[personal profile] gusumouthcannon 2020-09-07 01:33 pm (UTC)(link)
The relief only hits Jingyi after he sees Sizhui here, whole, and generally looking like himself. It is a good thing that he is already on his knees, or he would have collapsed and then Sizhui would be really worried. As it is, he puts his hands on the ground in front of him and lets his head sag for a good few seconds while he breathes.

When he looks up again, Sizhui is much closer and all over wet. Which is definitely something! His thoughts flash hard to a particular recent conversation, a lot of which no longer applies, but since there had been kissing somewhere in the middle it's stuck right there as he looks at his friend. Jingyi opens his mouth to blurt out he has no idea what, only to stop because Sizhui looks...off? Unhappy a little bit maybe?

"Are you okay?" is what ends up coming out of his mouth instead. Because his weird...dream? experience?...matters significantly less than the Sizhui that is present in front of him right at this moment in time.
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[personal profile] gusumouthcannon 2020-09-07 02:41 pm (UTC)(link)
"I am fine!" Jingyi says immediately, leaning into Sizhui's touch, as brief as it was. Was he being too obvious? He had not meant to change literally overnight but he could not just unthink thoughts that he had had. "It was just one of those dreams where you wake up and everything seems sideways after, and I had to come find you to make sure..." He really did not know what he was making sure of. Petulantly, he adds, "It woke me up!"

At that, though, he finally rocks back on his heels to consider. What did he want? Now that he was confronted with his actual life, now that he was home, his experiences really did seem like a dream. He opened his mouth to complain a little more, because what he actually wanted was to tell Sizhui about every part of it. It had been so utterly bizarre and like nothing even he could ever have come up with on his own, and Sizhui would have thoughts about it, he was sure. "It was like I was somewhere else for months. Months!"
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[personal profile] gusumouthcannon 2020-09-07 03:21 pm (UTC)(link)
Jingyi frowns at Sizhui, because that is strangely specific question to ask. He does not quite hope that Sizhui also remembers, because surely he would have noticed something (though, realistically, Sizhui is very good at everything, including secrets).

"Ah? Yes?" He nods slowly. "That is exactly what it was? The first one was--" He cuts off as words fail him. He tries the safest, most understandable thing, since he cannot truly expect Sizhui to understand the weirdest stuff without ever having seen any of it. "We had a house with rabbits. You and me and Hanguang-jun and Zewu-jun. But the house was built strangely, and it was among lots of others all arranged in rows along a road, each sitting on its own square of grass."

This is the part that makes him think 'dream,' but: "And then I was somewhere else entirely, very suddenly, and it was much, much stranger. I was flying through the stars in a--" He struggles. 'Shuttle' did not have any meaning to him before he had been inside one. "Large metal carriage? As I came back from the moon. And you were a rabbit. Not the rabbit in the moon! But just a rabbit on your own."
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[personal profile] gusumouthcannon 2020-09-07 04:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Jingyi launches himself into the water fully clothed. He cannot stand the sob or the odd tone that means something too close to distress for his heart to take, and he needs to try to hug him. Just wrap him up in soggy long sleeves because Sizhui remembers too and that is actually almost horrifying.

"Because of the--moons, yes, and I was turning into a dog or a wolf or something and there were two of you and I remember! I was just there and--" He is scattered like he has not been since he was much younger and Sizhui's gesture toward the bite-point is, well, if Jingyi was not trying to process everything at once, he would be turning very red. "It feels like it was really real even if it sounds completely crazy. But--you were from earlier in time."

And there's the horror. Aghast, he says, "You were already here remembering????"
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[personal profile] gusumouthcannon 2020-09-07 04:37 pm (UTC)(link)
"That is forever ago," Jingyi says, still horrified. "You did not say anything!" He is very cold and very wet, but he clings to Sizhui like his life depends on it. His thoughts are spinning as fast as that shuttle from the moon. And okay, okay, maybe Sizhui could not say anything because what would he even say except to describe something so much like a dream, but Sizhui had changed there and surely he would have had to change here too at some point. "Would you ever have eventually?"
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[personal profile] gusumouthcannon 2020-09-07 10:01 pm (UTC)(link)
An effort is made on Jingyi's part to remain in physical contact with Sizhui even as they clamber out of the cold springs, if only by something as light as a hand on a wrist or a shoulder against Sizhui's. Some of that is his natural tactile nature, but some of it is leftover from the very different cultural mores he got used to when he was elsewhere. He wants to be as close as Sizhui will let him, and he does not even think about how that might be odd. Not yet, not while this is the same Sizhui and there is nobody else around to look at him in askance.

Still, tho, he shivers, even as he takes off his outer layers and starts wringing them dry.

"I think you got lucky," Jingyi tells him point-blank. "Everyone else we know of who went home even for a little forgot everything. But--" He hums over the thought. "If you had told me, then would I have known about it going there? It is too confusing, so it is probably for the best. But you were there for longer than I was. Twice as long, maybe."

And this is the point where he would have lapsed into a contemplative silence if he had been literally anyone else. Instead, he continues, "So you have more people to miss with a lot more intensity." He makes a vague gesture at the side of his head. He means 'beads' but it is not obvious. "I am sorry that I could not help before, but now I can."

Jingyi had anchored himself in Sizhui in that other world--the second, not the first, oddly enough. This Sizhui. So it feels a little like something settling to know that he had only been without his Sizhui for a short time.
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[personal profile] gusumouthcannon 2020-09-08 10:37 pm (UTC)(link)
Jingyi very seriously considers kissing Sizhui right then, but instead he frown furiously to himself over Sizhui's words, finishes wringing out his overrobe, and slides it back on. He needs to be dressed if they are going to head back to their rooms.

"I am sorry about Jin Ling, and I--" he cuts off, thoughts tangled.

Sizhui had not begun to have thoughts about him in the weird alter-world, which meant...those feelings had started earlier. Which throws him, somehow. Not because he does not like the idea, but because it had not hit him that it was even possible before. "I did not know," Jingyi tells him, chewing on his lower lip in thought. "I did not know that I liked you, until I had gone and come back and"—he speeds up, a little distressed—"I had to think about it! You know I would have done something if I realized?"

That last question is very blatantly for reassurance.
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[personal profile] gusumouthcannon 2020-09-09 06:48 pm (UTC)(link)
"Awareness! Yes!" Jingyi agrees immediately, pressing their shoulders together.

"I like you a lot, you know," he makes sure to inform Sizhui, just in case that might not be clear. But what Sizhui says makes sense to him and he continues, "And I do not think I...could choose based on something you told me? Well, maybe I would, but I am pretty sure I would have lots of thoughts about whether or not I agreed, or whether or not the other me in your dreams or weird time travel reality thing was telling you the truth or not. Or--well, there were two of you there, but you are the only one I wanted to kiss. Maybe the other me would not have been me-me, but some other me--"

He stops, stricken, and gives Sizhui a wide-eyed look and grabs his arm. "Oh no, that would be terrible. Forget I said that. Then you would be here with the wrong me, and that is worse than anything."
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[personal profile] gusumouthcannon 2020-09-30 05:38 am (UTC)(link)
Cue fluttering heart and maybe a little bit of a squeak when Sizhui wraps his hand around Jingyi's. He immediately shifts to lace their fingers together because he can and he is allowed and they remember everything that came before this.

Jingyi's face is pretty thick, but when Sizhui says that he is the one that belongs with him he flushes bright red and absolutely cannot prevent himself from trying to kiss Sizhui.

There is absolutely no other response to that declaration that even makes sense.
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[personal profile] gusumouthcannon 2020-10-04 05:28 pm (UTC)(link)
Jingyi, for all of his inexperience, is immediately on board with the longer, sweeter kiss. He flings his arms around Sizhui's shoulders and holds on, and this, this is so much more like coming home even than waking up in his own bed had been. There is a kindling of possessiveness in his chest, a faint echo of his "dream", and he leans into it--and the kiss--because this is his in a place that is real.

When they break apart, he spends a moment breathing hard because he had not planned for any of this. Though even if he had, Sizhui is not someone who you expect not to steal your breath away. His higher thought processes have disengaged entirely and it is all he can do to flush at the endearment and beam. "Yes, yes, yes, A-Yuan, Sizhui, my favorite person. I do not think I can tell you how much I am glad to be home."
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[personal profile] gusumouthcannon 2020-10-23 06:17 am (UTC)(link)
"Good," Jingyi says fiercely, because if anyone should be flying--or their heart should, at least--it's Sizhui. "The very last thing I want is for your heart to be broken. Especially if I am part of the cause."

And then, because he has absolutely no reason not to (?) he hauls Sizhui in for another kiss.
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[personal profile] gusumouthcannon 2020-10-25 04:03 am (UTC)(link)
Jingyi's face is cupped (?!) and he freezes that way, hands finding their way to lay on top the ones Sizhui has on his face. His eyes are wide and he is flushed a bit from sheer unable-to-stand-still excitement more than anything else. He thinks he likes being looked at like that, and if Sizhui's heart is flying then Jingyi's is zooming in his chest, knocking against his ribs, unable to be any sort of calm.

"Yes!" Jingyi exclaims immediately. "I want to get out of my wet clothes."

That...that was not supposed to be innuendo but Jingyi's eyes flare just a fraction wider as soon as he realizes what he has just said.