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a-yuan i’m sorry
harry told me something horrible from home and what’s going to happen to him and i
it has to do with soul splitting and possession and stuff so i asked hanguang-jun for help
i just
i just wanted him to be okay if he went home again but hanguang-jun
he asked me if harry was my suitor and
i couldn’t lie??? like i guess we’re all kind of suitors right like i’m definitely yours i even got permission but it’s not like I could say no and
he didn’t say anything???? he just said to bring harry to him and i’m
fuck i’m sorry
but if he says we can’t see each other anymore then i don’t care!! i’ll see you anyway!! i’ll break in through your window and we’ll run away or or
or something!!
harry told me something horrible from home and what’s going to happen to him and i
it has to do with soul splitting and possession and stuff so i asked hanguang-jun for help
i just
i just wanted him to be okay if he went home again but hanguang-jun
he asked me if harry was my suitor and
i couldn’t lie??? like i guess we’re all kind of suitors right like i’m definitely yours i even got permission but it’s not like I could say no and
he didn’t say anything???? he just said to bring harry to him and i’m
fuck i’m sorry
but if he says we can’t see each other anymore then i don’t care!! i’ll see you anyway!! i’ll break in through your window and we’ll run away or or
or something!!
Is Harry all right?
[ Sizhui is just staring at that part fIRST but then he quickly adds, ]
You didn't tell Hanguang-jun anything he didn't know. Not lying is best with him.
It
He's disappointed with me, but he won't do anything that will hurt those who don't deserve it, and Harry doesn't. Nor does Yuri.
Do you need
I have hot chocolate I can make.
[ Sizhui is just staring at that part fIRST but then he quickly adds, ]
You didn't tell Hanguang-jun anything he didn't know. Not lying is best with him.
It
He's disappointed with me, but he won't do anything that will hurt those who don't deserve it, and Harry doesn't. Nor does Yuri.
Do you need
I have hot chocolate I can make.
he’s
no not really
it took a lot for him to tell me, i think, but he’s got a really bad curse on him and he thinks it means he has to die to save everyone when he goes home and it’s so stupid i want to scream but i’m not even sure i was supposed to tell anyone?? but who else but us could fix it anyway?? they clearly don’t know enough about curses and possession magic where he’s from and if we can get it lifted then he’ll be fine and he’ll be able to kill v
Volme
Voldemt???
look all the names are really weird i will figure that out later but really bad guy has to die to save the world and right now in order to kill him Harry would have to die to so obviously we can’t let that happen ??
Anyway i
wait what do you mean he already knows
about yuri too?
are you okay?
[ This is more important than the hot chocolate ]
no not really
it took a lot for him to tell me, i think, but he’s got a really bad curse on him and he thinks it means he has to die to save everyone when he goes home and it’s so stupid i want to scream but i’m not even sure i was supposed to tell anyone?? but who else but us could fix it anyway?? they clearly don’t know enough about curses and possession magic where he’s from and if we can get it lifted then he’ll be fine and he’ll be able to kill v
Volme
Voldemt???
look all the names are really weird i will figure that out later but really bad guy has to die to save the world and right now in order to kill him Harry would have to die to so obviously we can’t let that happen ??
Anyway i
wait what do you mean he already knows
about yuri too?
are you okay?
[ This is more important than the hot chocolate ]
Oh. He
That sounds really like something nobody should have to deal with. It...
If I find out or can think of something to help, once I know more, I will. Maybe we *should* start looking into ways to go between our worlds and this one at will. Like, then we could go and help.
I'm
Sect Leader Nie said that Hanguang-jun is not really upset but he also hasn't lived with the rules the way Hanguang-jun has. Or I have. Hanguang-jun thinks he failed *me* and I'm not sure how I could ever express how far from the truth that is? I hope at least Elder Brother proves to him that is not so.
That sounds really like something nobody should have to deal with. It...
If I find out or can think of something to help, once I know more, I will. Maybe we *should* start looking into ways to go between our worlds and this one at will. Like, then we could go and help.
I'm
Sect Leader Nie said that Hanguang-jun is not really upset but he also hasn't lived with the rules the way Hanguang-jun has. Or I have. Hanguang-jun thinks he failed *me* and I'm not sure how I could ever express how far from the truth that is? I hope at least Elder Brother proves to him that is not so.
hey, sizhui ⚡
sorry to bother
i don't know if jin ling has told you about what's going on
anyway that's not important —
i think your dad made a bit of a leaping jump about us i wanted to give you a heads up on
also, he's very odd
but i do like him
sorry to bother
i don't know if jin ling has told you about what's going on
anyway that's not important —
i think your dad made a bit of a leaping jump about us i wanted to give you a heads up on
also, he's very odd
but i do like him
Harry, hi.
It's not that he ... did. It's just that he was asking me about Jin Ling. And if I gave him straight answer that yes, I would have him, then he would expect Jin Ling to focus on only me. Which is a false expectation and would get Jin Ling in trouble.
So I told him there are others. I mean, Jingyi isn't here, but then he pressed for other names and I mentioned you, and why I can't begrudge Jin Ling the want, even a little. Though then he got upset and I couldn't clarify that the intentions are less directed at me at this time.
He
There is something that is rather ... core for the Lan clan. About each of us having one person who is the fated one. It goes back to the ancestor who founded the sect.
So if I would just claim that Jin Ling is that for me, then if he is close to anyone else, Hanguang-jun would be angry at him.
I just wanted to make sure that nobody gets his anger because I'm being blindsided or, well, cheated on.
In short, don't worry too much about it. And if he seems like he's judging you, that's because he basically judges everyone. Himself most of all.
It's not that he ... did. It's just that he was asking me about Jin Ling. And if I gave him straight answer that yes, I would have him, then he would expect Jin Ling to focus on only me. Which is a false expectation and would get Jin Ling in trouble.
So I told him there are others. I mean, Jingyi isn't here, but then he pressed for other names and I mentioned you, and why I can't begrudge Jin Ling the want, even a little. Though then he got upset and I couldn't clarify that the intentions are less directed at me at this time.
He
There is something that is rather ... core for the Lan clan. About each of us having one person who is the fated one. It goes back to the ancestor who founded the sect.
So if I would just claim that Jin Ling is that for me, then if he is close to anyone else, Hanguang-jun would be angry at him.
I just wanted to make sure that nobody gets his anger because I'm being blindsided or, well, cheated on.
In short, don't worry too much about it. And if he seems like he's judging you, that's because he basically judges everyone. Himself most of all.
oh, you already knew
it's alright
i mean, i couldn't imagine having that kind of talk with anyone i consider an adult in charge, so i can't entirely blame you for misconceptions
i told jin ling to tell him it's none of his business, but he seems to think that's incredibly hard to say to your father
for your benefit, i will learn to keep my mouth shut
:)
the idea of polygamy isn't exactly ... commonplace where i'm from, either
'fated one' is a bit dramatic, but i think the idea is still central there. soulmates, that kind of thing.
i guess, why not more than one? the more the merrier, or something
anyway, if your father believes i'm to court you, then court you i will
it's very fanciful language
it makes me think of ... knights and princesses and princes
it's alright
i mean, i couldn't imagine having that kind of talk with anyone i consider an adult in charge, so i can't entirely blame you for misconceptions
i told jin ling to tell him it's none of his business, but he seems to think that's incredibly hard to say to your father
for your benefit, i will learn to keep my mouth shut
:)
the idea of polygamy isn't exactly ... commonplace where i'm from, either
'fated one' is a bit dramatic, but i think the idea is still central there. soulmates, that kind of thing.
i guess, why not more than one? the more the merrier, or something
anyway, if your father believes i'm to court you, then court you i will
it's very fanciful language
it makes me think of ... knights and princesses and princes
I could guess what kind of conclusion he would reach. If I hadn't been distracted, at least.
You know you don't have to do anything you don't want to, right? I mean I don't mind if you and I were to get to know each other better. And see what happens from that point forward? But you don't have to commit just... immediately. Or I might end up courting you. That would be interesting, too.
But there is a lot that we can do to learn about each other? For example, the only knights I know about are the moon knights here, so I'm not sure what that means, since I don't know how they connect to princes and princesses. But it sounds, well, fanciful.
As to keeping your mouth shut, the thing is, if you overstep, he'll do it for you. You can ask Jin Ling. He is harder to offend that he seems, mostly because he has learned to ignore... things. Or will learn. The Hanguang-jun from Jin Ling's world is a lot younger than the one from mine, than he would be at our ages. And he is still in mourning about losing his fated one. Because there is only one person for him. And then there was his and Zewu-jun's father, whose fated one didn't love him back. So it has a bit of history and he's lived with that for all his life. And then there is me, who is not choosing one person and one person only.
But it'd be worse to lie to him, about any of it. Or to act as though I don't feel the way that I feel. OR - well, I'm sure you get what I mean. Maybe?
You know you don't have to do anything you don't want to, right? I mean I don't mind if you and I were to get to know each other better. And see what happens from that point forward? But you don't have to commit just... immediately. Or I might end up courting you. That would be interesting, too.
But there is a lot that we can do to learn about each other? For example, the only knights I know about are the moon knights here, so I'm not sure what that means, since I don't know how they connect to princes and princesses. But it sounds, well, fanciful.
As to keeping your mouth shut, the thing is, if you overstep, he'll do it for you. You can ask Jin Ling. He is harder to offend that he seems, mostly because he has learned to ignore... things. Or will learn. The Hanguang-jun from Jin Ling's world is a lot younger than the one from mine, than he would be at our ages. And he is still in mourning about losing his fated one. Because there is only one person for him. And then there was his and Zewu-jun's father, whose fated one didn't love him back. So it has a bit of history and he's lived with that for all his life. And then there is me, who is not choosing one person and one person only.
But it'd be worse to lie to him, about any of it. Or to act as though I don't feel the way that I feel. OR - well, I'm sure you get what I mean. Maybe?
Of course. I am ready.
[ It is what he learned, from that last time at the Burial Mound.
There is no time when you can be not ready. Even if times to let your guard down are impossible to avoid, still you have to be ready.
This place, for all its dangers being... different, has only driven that lesson home. ]
[ It is what he learned, from that last time at the Burial Mound.
There is no time when you can be not ready. Even if times to let your guard down are impossible to avoid, still you have to be ready.
This place, for all its dangers being... different, has only driven that lesson home. ]
[It was the late morning the next day when he found out that his double's father returned home. So later in the warm spring afternoon, wanting to be kind, because this is his double, his twin, almost like a brother, so when his double suffers, he suffers all the same too. It's in his nature to show support.
He gathers flowers, fruits, and a jar of honey that is all the rage in the Farmer's market. Flowers to cheer up and sweets to make it better. Now to offer company.]
If you like, I can come over. I can make tea and toast for you?
He gathers flowers, fruits, and a jar of honey that is all the rage in the Farmer's market. Flowers to cheer up and sweets to make it better. Now to offer company.]
If you like, I can come over. I can make tea and toast for you?
[ And, by this point, Sizhui has found out that (his) Zewu-jun has turned into a crystal. Which, to Sizhui's knowledge, happens when a moonblessed dies, particularly from lack of chroma.
And he knew that Hanguang-jun and himself may have been Zewu-jun's primary sources of chroma.
He is fine. Just fine. ]
I would like that, Elder brother. I may not be at my best right now, however.
[ At least he got the crying out, for once, last night. ]
And he knew that Hanguang-jun and himself may have been Zewu-jun's primary sources of chroma.
He is fine. Just fine. ]
I would like that, Elder brother. I may not be at my best right now, however.
[ At least he got the crying out, for once, last night. ]
[No, it's not fine. Never fine. A loss is a loss. It is never kind. It leaves a certain emptiness and grief. Support, he needs it now. Knowing himself, things are extra vulnerable when the two gentleman known to be powerful sect leaders that holds the Lan Clan together, who happens to the only family Sizhui grew up with.
Sizhui gathered ingredients from the farmer's market. He's determined to make that toast, nutella french toast to be exact. This treat and lunch will be entirely on him. It's a lovely spring day also with flowers blooming, wildflowers from the blossoms and fall of the tree, scattering over the city, and the weather is warm.]
You don't have to be your best. And I'm coming over. Let's have some sweets and tea.
[The older Sizhui shows up to his house and knocks on the door. When open, he stood there, petals of wildflowers stuck on his hair and robes, and no words needed to be said. He's going to give his twin and younger brother a hug.]
Sizhui gathered ingredients from the farmer's market. He's determined to make that toast, nutella french toast to be exact. This treat and lunch will be entirely on him. It's a lovely spring day also with flowers blooming, wildflowers from the blossoms and fall of the tree, scattering over the city, and the weather is warm.]
You don't have to be your best. And I'm coming over. Let's have some sweets and tea.
[The older Sizhui shows up to his house and knocks on the door. When open, he stood there, petals of wildflowers stuck on his hair and robes, and no words needed to be said. He's going to give his twin and younger brother a hug.]
[ And Sizhui makes a small noise but also burrows himself a little against the mirror of himself from another world. It takes a moment before he can even think enough to speak. ]
Thank you for coming, Elder brother.
Do you think we can make enough so I can take some to Senior Wei, later?
[ Of course he will help.
And even if Senior Wei is not in the mood for eating it, maybe he can still have a bite or two, and feel a little better, if only for a moment.
Or, maybe, he is again too hopeful. ]
Thank you for coming, Elder brother.
Do you think we can make enough so I can take some to Senior Wei, later?
[ Of course he will help.
And even if Senior Wei is not in the mood for eating it, maybe he can still have a bite or two, and feel a little better, if only for a moment.
Or, maybe, he is again too hopeful. ]
[ Sizhui is ... holding up. No small thanks to Jin Ling and Jingyi, and even Yuri, but it's still... his whole world feels like it has been uprooted, and he's - it's difficult to do more than barely coping. But habit, and the awareness that letting himself crumble would be the worst - for the sake of Senior Wei, but also for the sake of Hanguang-jun, too, back home or should he ever return, and the one here...
So he is. Functional. It's all just a little gray, but he's pushing through, because there are people who love him and he can't not.
The please in the text jerks him a little from the faint fog clouding his mind. ]
Hanguang-jun! I'm still here. Practicing and working out. Making sure the house is in order and that there is fresh set of clothing and fresh water next to Zewu-jun's crystal.
[ Right, there is... also this. ]
The small fae which created those bubbles seemed to be more fond of my singing to them than trying to leave when I did, but they are all gone now.
So he is. Functional. It's all just a little gray, but he's pushing through, because there are people who love him and he can't not.
The please in the text jerks him a little from the faint fog clouding his mind. ]
Hanguang-jun! I'm still here. Practicing and working out. Making sure the house is in order and that there is fresh set of clothing and fresh water next to Zewu-jun's crystal.
[ Right, there is... also this. ]
The small fae which created those bubbles seemed to be more fond of my singing to them than trying to leave when I did, but they are all gone now.
Lan-gongzi, I have received the goods I ordered for Jin Ling, and since they are for him and his partners, I thought you might want to come pick them up with him.
[ It's been... a bit of a time. With the recent losses, Sizhui has been focusing on keeping on moving, keeping Jin Ling moving, and so this is literally... out of nowhere.
So he blinks for a couple of moments into the video feed, while his reflexes kick in. ]
Th-thank you, Senior Beitang. I will talk with him...?
So he blinks for a couple of moments into the video feed, while his reflexes kick in. ]
Th-thank you, Senior Beitang. I will talk with him...?
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